Sometimes life is hard. Tonight Tim is working late as is often the case. Most of his company's clients are in Japan so when they have conferences they start at 8pm our time. Wouldn't hurt those Japanese guys to have an earlier appointment but oh well. I think it's around 10am their time. It really stinks for Tim and for me too. Life can be rough and living in NY has not been a piece of cake. I am so tempted to think that if we only lived in Texas things would be better. Sure, any company will require extra time of Tim, but just being in Texas would be a help. Seriously, just one mile south of the Red River would work for me. I know that Tim is getting a lot of good experience that is invaluable in his field, and it helps that I keep reminding myself of that. Helps somewhat but not completely. I'm probably just "Eeyore-like" because it's dark and Tim worked a lot last week and was busy on his *new* car all weekend. I am really missing Texas and all of my dear friends down there. Life is marching on for everyone. Jessy is preggers. Abe is one. My sis is graduating. Susan is getting married. Mindy is preggers ith #2, etc... And it seems like every weekend my family or Tim's is getting together to BBQ and just hang out or celebrate someone's birthday. I miss Arlington. I miss my Krogers and the Ranger's ballpark. I miss hanging out with Chris and Katey and Bethanie and Steve. I miss UTA and River Legacy Park where we would go running and throw the frisbee for Maddie. I miss playing speed scrabble until 3am with Jered and Courtney. This isn't helping. I just keep thinking of things I miss.
We will go back someday and this time will seem like a drop in the bucket compared to the rest of our lives. Right? RIGHT?? I guess right now it just seems like forever. We've been here a year and it's been interesting and about what I expected (read: miserable) but it can only get better. We're starting to make friends and I can finally drive without getting lost. Now that Libby is old enough and not sick we can start looking for a church again. I know that will help too. And sometime in the future Tim will have enough of this illusive "experience" and we can move back to Texas. Sweet, wonderful Texas. And I promise to never complain about the hot weather again!!
The test that my pet squirrel peed on before I had to hand it in!
Sweet Ave and I at a Rangers game.
My dad and I BBQing at my family's house. My hair was looong!
With Chris, Katey, and John K. at a Rangers game.
Hope you enjoyed those! It was fun for me too!
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...and in the life is marching on thing, it should be included that I am painting everything purple. I don't know why, but it just should. :)
Love the pics! :) You WILL come back. Sanna just told me she might come up to Dallas in a year or so to go to chiropractic school! It would be a change, having her as one of the North Texas group. :) Just rambling...Do you think we could play speed scrabble over the phone?
PS The word verification thingy was "perst" and I died laughing. I don't know why. It's just a funny sound.
and did you tell the prof that there was squirrel pee on that test?
NO! I just told her that something "spilled" on it and she replied not to worry, in college one time her cat threw up on a paper she had to turn in. I just laughed and didn't make any comments. I didn't like her anyway, she wasn't too nice.
Oh we miss you too!!! Love that pic of Ave and you at game.
A few months ago, I could have written this post myself. Just swap out New York for PA, and Texas for Indiana, and yeah...quite similar indeed.
In June, we will have been in Pittsburgh for two years. Good gravy.
It's finally starting to get easier for me. I have a mom friend and a group of ladies who were also new to the city. Getting together with them was the turning point for me.
It made me feel like I belonged somewhere, ya know? I hated the city a little less, and now I even like it most of the time.
It really has gotten easier. I think the big thing was that I finally allowed myself to stop hating our situation so much and gave the dang place a chance.
I hope that things get easier for you. Maybe as Lib gets older, you can find a moms group and a church home (that's also something we've been working on since we got here).
Just know that you are not alone!
Oh, and there's a book: "Moving on after moving in" that was really helpful for me. Check it out sometime!
xoxo
Sweet Stac! Did you read the comment from your "lonely" friend on facebook yet? It really hurts my heart thinking of you being sad up there, because even though we are way closer, I totally get it. I miss out on so much! We both come from VERY close families and friends and you get how much of a blessing that is when you don't get to see them on a regular basis. I miss birthdays (Abe's most recently) weddings, Sunday lunch with all the family, Date nights, dinners, lunches, my parents...
While we were in church this past wkend (we got to go home for a wedding and were there for literally 30 hours) I kept thinking "how can I find a church that feels like Burleson Bible Church?" It feels like HOME. Everyone knows me. They know Brandon. They hugged me so close when they found out about the baby. How can I ever, ever find a friends like my friends back home? So many years of memories, love, school, marriage, babies...you can't make up for that!
I have realized that my friends will never be replaced. My family will always be missed. I just have to find the good in where I am right now. I have to try.
And in my prayers (just like when I was thirteen and moved to Texas from New Orleans) I pray that we can move home soon. God wants to hear our requests. He loves us and wants what is best for us. You will be home in His perfect timing! I will pray that may be really soon...
Love you!!!
I got tears in my ears when I read your blog- I need my stacy back. We love you and miss you and i know you will be back soon :)
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